Life Lately

I have SO much to do... so I will use this as my Reminder to do them.

-WRITE COLLEGE ESSAY

-GET RECOMMENDATIONS FOR COLLEGE

-STUDY FOR SAT

-PRACTICE FOR DRIVING TEST

-ANTICIPATE INCOME TAX 

-ANTICIPATE PASSPORT 

-WRITE COLLEGE ESSAY

Ok so now I am at the point where I cannot function much. The evils and such that plague my mind are strong. I know that I am not the only person in History who has had to endure this. Their situations are different from mine- this i know ... but likewise i cannot help the instructions of these ideas in my head. What IDeas you ask? Well I've seen a shift in who i am and who i can become and its been a long hard debate of which route to choose. Idk where exactly either will take me. So I am frustrated for the most part with life. NOT being able to have accurate advise... I get to thinking that this world is also set up for failure. these are negative thoughts and for such a positive person it makes me wonder. 

Anywhose. Gotta get this shit done. FUN FACT. A few Months ago- Around the time my Dear Friend Sidonie Fery Died... I thought i too was dying. even thought sometimes that she died for me. what kind of world do we live in where we associate things the way we do- where we actuallly know nothing and are puppets of a society that casts ideas upon us almost subconsciensly in our litttle bubble- 

TO NOT be ingorant SUCKS. I want to not know- but not knowing makes you venture for truth and once you get it- you get pretty damn depressed. or maybe its the partying and house music. also the news says Facebook can make you depressed. NO SHIT SHERLOCK HOLMES. I need. Water.

SO MANY PEOPPPLE HAVE BAD DIETS. they just dont eat right. hmm

WELL tonight i will get all my work done. and not sleep and then tomorrow i will be nice and sleepy and get shit done still. PRESSURE IS WHERE I PERFORM BEST. it is a proven fact. PREssure it is.