LONG TERM GOALS. Short Term Goal.
Respectfully,
Calvin M. Swint
5/28/2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Calvin Today.
There are sleepless nights where inspiration meets motivation and your propelled to do great things with your life. Discontinue pessimism and use what you already know including the mistakes that have been made in history, and allow them to be the model for success you utilize to propel yourself forward in this daring world we accompany. As time continues and revolves as we spend it, we must be careful that later in our tenure we wont look back on our time as wasted or lacking expereince or adventure. Oscar Wilde said "Youth is wasted on the young...". While this statement may hold true to some of the popular trends of our generation and society- we must not excuse those who relentlessly fight a battle for humanity that needs to be fulfilled. I can only hope that my decisions and efforts result in production that i can measure. We are what we create and if our attitudes to the matter of life are negative or pessimistic then inevitably our results will reflect.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
20 years
As I approach the mark of having lived 20 years on this planet.... it becomes more clear to me that this entire time has been leading up to me being responsible.. no wander parents try to drill it in our heads at such a young age. I want my 20 year mark to be productive. Create something im proud of... Make some money... save, budget, and spend wisely. I want to Start trading stock... OOOaaaaaaahh... and shit like that. Wow 20. Seems like such a large number. I wanna have a stable workout system.. going to sleep and waking up system.. a certain amount i read.. a certain amount of work I do.. and i know it all has to do with me DOING it. Action. it keeps showing up.
Monday, May 9, 2011
PLANET HURT
yo did you know that (humans) are tampering with the equilibrium of planet earth
?
like hardcore...
global warming has been lableed as this thing beyond our control - so people pay very little to no attention to it.
honestly global warming is not a natrual phenomenon.
it is DIRECTLY related to our existense and the shit we do... like cutt down forest and what not..
there is a balance in the ecosystem that NEEDS to be fullfilled or else we along with all the species.. DIE. period.
Animals and the balance of nature is very fragile.
IM TAKING ENVIRONMENTAL SCIENCE ONLINE along with history but i havent started that class yet. Ive been set on completely finishing the course in 1 week. I have completed half of class already... PRETTY IMPRESSIVE... its supposed to last me the whole summer.... SO Environmental class.. when i was first told to take it.. sounded like an 8th exploration of worms and outer space.. and it is exactly the opposite of that. It is SO important to understand the planet and the functions we use to operate in order to get a clear picture of what we are doing to the planet and ourselves. I feel like a fucking hippie BUT shit is true. SHIT IS DANGEROUS.
I wanna help somehow... but i just dont know how.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Dreams
OH RIGHT. this would be a nice place to explain the intense dreams i keep having...
OK SO THE FIRST... is this place in NYC... a loft like entrance sort of like a store but its someone's home but very open.. very vulnerable but lacking furniture and color. there is a couch situated near the entrance and window of door.. i can recall that it is the one place where last time i was talking with my teacher outside of it and he asked if i wanted to go where Sidonie went and i of course replied no... she passed away. the world was stable on earth but if you looked to the sky.. the sun was brilliant and seemed closer than normal. The stars were spinning out of control and while all this was going on i was forced to answer questions. I Enter the house and i have to wait by the door as to not intrude and wait for someone come to the door so it does not look like i allowed myself in. Im waiting and i drop my soda on the floor on the carpet right by the entrance of the door and i quickly pick it up and pretend the stain is not my fault and perhaps is the result of some mistake before i had entered in the room. My friends mom comes out with flowers in her hand.. i assume she was tending to them and then the father and sooner than i can realise, were all sitting around and i am located on the floor. I am answering questions and a conversation is occuring but the same reservation i have in my life... i have in my dream... i am withholding parts of my life and it is making me feel that everyone thinks that im being dishonest... it worries me and i put up a guard that results in me being defensive and waking up.
ANOTHER... the Dreams always starts with a hike up a piney road filled with trees and bushes in the mountains in what one would think is a private road... once we are done walking we come across cars. im usually with my family... we come across a lavish house, decked out in the most complex gardeing and pool setup with a patio and umbrellas, a nice layout leading to the house and a grand lake swished in between moutains that lead to the ocean... everytime i see it.. i am stunned that i get to be here... but its mine. this house is mine and i dont seem to understand how... soon enough the ocean-lake starts to flood before i can get a full tour around place... and we must retreat into the house. we find the house to be safe until the water begins to seep into the house and we must find safetly. I resort to different rooms but each has its problem and i come up the with idea of retreating to higher ground or the attic. But when i get to the stairs... they are out of place... the llayout is all wrong... there is no way i can get to the stairs from where i am without out putting myself in danger... so i have to leeep in oder to get to the part where i am able to climb the next stairs to get up to the attic... i am always the only one to make it across... and find myself allone climbing the stairs to the attic and when i get there... i am looking out the window onto a college campus where everyone is playing and hanging in the summery days... eventually the attic becomes my dorm room and i am a student at this college.
ANOTHER... Obama has appeared in my dreams something like 6 times.. in them he doesnt say much but holds a conversation with me and while im doing most of the talking he tells me that i should heed to what i say... Hes always busy doing something else... fixing something.. putting something in place like a book... or texting or typing something... the advice he always gives is just be careful. HE is CHill.
In the past when he appeared in my dream.. someone big would also be there... like OPRAH, or Denzel Washington, or Cory Booker... Cory Booker who is my Mayor, i have met but the others i have not had ties to. Oprah in one dream stole my wallet and had me chase her down around the city in what seemed like a ridiculous movie plot... and when i would find her.. it would always be in a white room with 2 body guards and nothing else and she would give me a menila envelope with information in side. I would wake up.
The other was we when we were all playing cards. Denzel, Cory, Obama, and I and Denzel was always so feminine in my dream. Everyone in the dream would eventually become Dogs but their heads would be the same... and they had clothing on them... but they were dogs.. the scope of my vision was that of a FISHEYE.
IMPECCABLE DETAIL. I remember all of this. Down to colors. WHAT DOES IT MEAN!
hmm
I have more. Im tried of typing though.. and should go back to studying.
OK SO THE FIRST... is this place in NYC... a loft like entrance sort of like a store but its someone's home but very open.. very vulnerable but lacking furniture and color. there is a couch situated near the entrance and window of door.. i can recall that it is the one place where last time i was talking with my teacher outside of it and he asked if i wanted to go where Sidonie went and i of course replied no... she passed away. the world was stable on earth but if you looked to the sky.. the sun was brilliant and seemed closer than normal. The stars were spinning out of control and while all this was going on i was forced to answer questions. I Enter the house and i have to wait by the door as to not intrude and wait for someone come to the door so it does not look like i allowed myself in. Im waiting and i drop my soda on the floor on the carpet right by the entrance of the door and i quickly pick it up and pretend the stain is not my fault and perhaps is the result of some mistake before i had entered in the room. My friends mom comes out with flowers in her hand.. i assume she was tending to them and then the father and sooner than i can realise, were all sitting around and i am located on the floor. I am answering questions and a conversation is occuring but the same reservation i have in my life... i have in my dream... i am withholding parts of my life and it is making me feel that everyone thinks that im being dishonest... it worries me and i put up a guard that results in me being defensive and waking up.
ANOTHER... the Dreams always starts with a hike up a piney road filled with trees and bushes in the mountains in what one would think is a private road... once we are done walking we come across cars. im usually with my family... we come across a lavish house, decked out in the most complex gardeing and pool setup with a patio and umbrellas, a nice layout leading to the house and a grand lake swished in between moutains that lead to the ocean... everytime i see it.. i am stunned that i get to be here... but its mine. this house is mine and i dont seem to understand how... soon enough the ocean-lake starts to flood before i can get a full tour around place... and we must retreat into the house. we find the house to be safe until the water begins to seep into the house and we must find safetly. I resort to different rooms but each has its problem and i come up the with idea of retreating to higher ground or the attic. But when i get to the stairs... they are out of place... the llayout is all wrong... there is no way i can get to the stairs from where i am without out putting myself in danger... so i have to leeep in oder to get to the part where i am able to climb the next stairs to get up to the attic... i am always the only one to make it across... and find myself allone climbing the stairs to the attic and when i get there... i am looking out the window onto a college campus where everyone is playing and hanging in the summery days... eventually the attic becomes my dorm room and i am a student at this college.
ANOTHER... Obama has appeared in my dreams something like 6 times.. in them he doesnt say much but holds a conversation with me and while im doing most of the talking he tells me that i should heed to what i say... Hes always busy doing something else... fixing something.. putting something in place like a book... or texting or typing something... the advice he always gives is just be careful. HE is CHill.
In the past when he appeared in my dream.. someone big would also be there... like OPRAH, or Denzel Washington, or Cory Booker... Cory Booker who is my Mayor, i have met but the others i have not had ties to. Oprah in one dream stole my wallet and had me chase her down around the city in what seemed like a ridiculous movie plot... and when i would find her.. it would always be in a white room with 2 body guards and nothing else and she would give me a menila envelope with information in side. I would wake up.
The other was we when we were all playing cards. Denzel, Cory, Obama, and I and Denzel was always so feminine in my dream. Everyone in the dream would eventually become Dogs but their heads would be the same... and they had clothing on them... but they were dogs.. the scope of my vision was that of a FISHEYE.
IMPECCABLE DETAIL. I remember all of this. Down to colors. WHAT DOES IT MEAN!
hmm
I have more. Im tried of typing though.. and should go back to studying.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Levels
The months seem to have just been slipping by and it makes me wonder if i have been wasting time. Sometimes i feel like I am on the right path but then there is that other option that comes along that seems equally beneficial. On thing i have learned in life... is that is will hand you the good and the bad no matter what situation you are in. People will judge your ideas and you actions and it all comes down to how much it matters to you and what you do about them. I choose not to really react. All my life has been observing and taking note on the way in which all humans interact with each other in different settings, and how people adapt to new environments. I feel like im a quest of some sort. The kind that Indiana Jones was on. I never got the opportunity to watch Indiana Jones. As a black kid growing up in urban settings... those sort of resources were scarce. Many were scarce. The ones you see now- the ones your no longer blind to that have exposed themselves in your life. The ones that make a difference in quality.
A number of things can motivate a person to do something. In a world where conformity has been upgraded to normality, its important we maintain a balance between who we are and who we want to be. We shouldn't allow the voices of others to influence our paths and we most certainly should not rely on anyone else for our success. I realize that alot of people are ignorant to alot of things and i think that is just the fault of those who are not curious and have chosen the route of conformity- but for the others who have created their own path, it easy to be daunted by the how often people are judging and how much scrutiny your endeavors might endure. One thing is for certain though. No man who has ever discovered something new or great, cared for the aftermath of what happen as much as he cared for the planning and execution of his idea and the resulting feeling of accomplishment that comes with it.
I have the idea construct a company- a promotional one which would promote a number of things but most importantly would serve as a community of the people that i know. A way to organize them for later on. It is easy for people to meet and greet but to be in touch later is the part that most are looking for. People want reliability and they want a source that is always available. While i do not want to be the source of promotional needs for the rest of my life. I am currently utilizing my talents to bring people together to make a success for myself. I am only 19 years old and while the age of 20 which is approaching is daunting and scary, it also awakes me to the opportunities that are here and those that will be lost if i do not take advantage of them. I am fully aware. I am beyond aware of how important money will play as a role in my future.
School is busy and it is neat surreal to imagine a day job supporting ones goals and desires. I want my company to be last a short time and following its launch and success... I want to take the money and travel the world alone. Meet new people and blog and share my experience. Video Blog, voice record, write poetry, express myself. I eventually want to compile these things into a book which i was stating earlier in my blog. I cannot believe im turning twenty. Call these rants if you want but they are the reserved thoughts of my brain that i dont share with people for fear of vulnerability. We all feel slightly vulnerable to the harms of the world and interestingly enough a child in a YouTube video explained why would you share all your feelings and thoughts with the world. Its funny that even as a child weve been either transformed or have developed that sort of thought pattern that discretion and privacy is important in this world.
Its saturday while usually i would be out doing all the wrong things with my other degenerate teenage companions... today is an unusual case of wanting to get things done. to finally follow through on those accomplishments and that success. I am no longer waiting for a train to come sweep me off my feet. We live in a world where our actions are a direct result of who we are here. If we are not doing anything with our time and resources then we are just as good as dead or another person among the many who have comformed. So will you lead or follow? I hear it all the time. The good and the bad. The right and the wrong.
Our brains have been shaped by the media and how abilities to get out of this box has proven to be a fail. but whats harder and more challenging that anything is getting out of the box and not standing out like a sore thumb among the crowd. A level of discretion, conformity, and individuality that is rarely found. A balance.
If i fail. Then hay! At least i can say i tried.
I was watching a video the other day about woman in our society and how the media has transformed the thought pattern of so many to think and act a certain way and even as a child we are subjected to these cruel limitations. Just the other day my little neice was putting on my sisters heels and walking around the room with her hand on her hip talking about how she would one day have a boyfriend. She put on her pretend jewlery and put her left hand on her hip. She moved about the hall the way a model does and she did not for one second THINK that she was incapable of being just that: a model. We can all be models to a society. be the prototype of what is in and whats not but in the end it is what makes us happy that really trully matters.
MY PROBLEM IS LIKING EVERYTHING. If i hadnt tried it... i kinda wanna give it a shot. GIVE IT A SHOT. You only live once, We are young and will regret not living later, and lifes socail norms and structures are simply things to keep most of us from running wild and being out of order. Right now. we are pretty ordered. So SUPPORT a friend. give a hand. Donate some money to charity, buy a concert ticket. LIVE LIFE because soon we will be growing up and wont have the time of day to try new things.
A number of things can motivate a person to do something. In a world where conformity has been upgraded to normality, its important we maintain a balance between who we are and who we want to be. We shouldn't allow the voices of others to influence our paths and we most certainly should not rely on anyone else for our success. I realize that alot of people are ignorant to alot of things and i think that is just the fault of those who are not curious and have chosen the route of conformity- but for the others who have created their own path, it easy to be daunted by the how often people are judging and how much scrutiny your endeavors might endure. One thing is for certain though. No man who has ever discovered something new or great, cared for the aftermath of what happen as much as he cared for the planning and execution of his idea and the resulting feeling of accomplishment that comes with it.
I have the idea construct a company- a promotional one which would promote a number of things but most importantly would serve as a community of the people that i know. A way to organize them for later on. It is easy for people to meet and greet but to be in touch later is the part that most are looking for. People want reliability and they want a source that is always available. While i do not want to be the source of promotional needs for the rest of my life. I am currently utilizing my talents to bring people together to make a success for myself. I am only 19 years old and while the age of 20 which is approaching is daunting and scary, it also awakes me to the opportunities that are here and those that will be lost if i do not take advantage of them. I am fully aware. I am beyond aware of how important money will play as a role in my future.
School is busy and it is neat surreal to imagine a day job supporting ones goals and desires. I want my company to be last a short time and following its launch and success... I want to take the money and travel the world alone. Meet new people and blog and share my experience. Video Blog, voice record, write poetry, express myself. I eventually want to compile these things into a book which i was stating earlier in my blog. I cannot believe im turning twenty. Call these rants if you want but they are the reserved thoughts of my brain that i dont share with people for fear of vulnerability. We all feel slightly vulnerable to the harms of the world and interestingly enough a child in a YouTube video explained why would you share all your feelings and thoughts with the world. Its funny that even as a child weve been either transformed or have developed that sort of thought pattern that discretion and privacy is important in this world.
Its saturday while usually i would be out doing all the wrong things with my other degenerate teenage companions... today is an unusual case of wanting to get things done. to finally follow through on those accomplishments and that success. I am no longer waiting for a train to come sweep me off my feet. We live in a world where our actions are a direct result of who we are here. If we are not doing anything with our time and resources then we are just as good as dead or another person among the many who have comformed. So will you lead or follow? I hear it all the time. The good and the bad. The right and the wrong.
Our brains have been shaped by the media and how abilities to get out of this box has proven to be a fail. but whats harder and more challenging that anything is getting out of the box and not standing out like a sore thumb among the crowd. A level of discretion, conformity, and individuality that is rarely found. A balance.
If i fail. Then hay! At least i can say i tried.
I was watching a video the other day about woman in our society and how the media has transformed the thought pattern of so many to think and act a certain way and even as a child we are subjected to these cruel limitations. Just the other day my little neice was putting on my sisters heels and walking around the room with her hand on her hip talking about how she would one day have a boyfriend. She put on her pretend jewlery and put her left hand on her hip. She moved about the hall the way a model does and she did not for one second THINK that she was incapable of being just that: a model. We can all be models to a society. be the prototype of what is in and whats not but in the end it is what makes us happy that really trully matters.
MY PROBLEM IS LIKING EVERYTHING. If i hadnt tried it... i kinda wanna give it a shot. GIVE IT A SHOT. You only live once, We are young and will regret not living later, and lifes socail norms and structures are simply things to keep most of us from running wild and being out of order. Right now. we are pretty ordered. So SUPPORT a friend. give a hand. Donate some money to charity, buy a concert ticket. LIVE LIFE because soon we will be growing up and wont have the time of day to try new things.
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